''I was on my own, minding my business(which was nothing),no longer bothered that I was diminishing daily under the weighty burden on my mind. Troubles and problems were my closest pals,we wake,move,breath, hell,we even take naps together. Nobody could tell us apart as we were one. When you see me,you see problem, trouble and depression was the ring leader. Oh!! We so were close. I can even say other victims that do say they have a problem or trouble are with the mere photocopies because from the realness of the suffering I was passing through, it was obvious I had the originals. But you know what? I was getting used to this deadly companions, I was already bonding with them. It got to a point in our relationship that if they(depression and trouble) didn't show up on time, I go searching for them. Until one day, someone strangely appeared at my door-step. And said he had a good-news for me....'what?, me? , good what?,' I thought in my mind. You see it's been long I heard that word 'Good',I wasn't even sure I could define the meaning anymore. I looked at the strange man,and said 'wait o hope you're not Jehovah's Witnesses?' I looked at him, he wasn't holding any bag or Bible,good. So what's the good news? I asked the man standing at my door step.
The man looked at me and gave me a gift no one had given me in a very long time; a smile. I stood there for a while, wondering how a man on this planet could this be relaxed and happy. My goodness. The joy on this man's face was quite the opposite of what I had locked up in me.
'Hello mister, I've been here on 3 different occasions and it was either your door was locked from the outside showing you were out or the door is locked from the inside indicating you were inside' the smiling man said. That's the thing, I do go out truly most times but trust me ,it wasn't to a particular destination. It was just one of those sad moments my mind start frolicking about, when the pain in my heart needed fresh air,then I usually just stroll out for a walk. Likewise when I choose to lock my self in,no matter who knocks or with what, you had better come back another time because I must have been so lost under the burden of grief and depression. So,regardless of how loud you may scream my name, you're just never going to get me to open up( besides who even cared to check on me those days). And that thought made me enquire why all of a sudden,this man wants to see me,or is he one of my numerous creditors? No! This face is strange,I've never met him before. Besides he just mentioned he came with good-news.
' I have been eager to meet with the occupant of this room for a while because I was specifically sent to him' the strange man broke into my thought,.... I listened earnestly to this strange visitor for strange reason, probably because it's been ages since anyone even cared to visit or sat down to talk with me. The man was just more than a visitor, he was heavenly sent. I couldn't explain what that meant but I was having that strong feeling so I invited him as all along he was at the door step.
"What's your name Sir?' He asked, and I was like shuuuuuu,I don't know you,I've never met you and you're demanding for my name,this would have been the normal Nigerian response but no, there was nothing normal about me or my situation so I replied him; TUMININU ROBERT (damn, I even gave him my surname, well,who cares).
"The man smiled,and said 'wow!!! Tumininu,what a great,fine name....' What's fine and great about my name? I've been leaving on the opposite side of my name all my life,I thought.' The message I brought is from someone who wish to help, I want to introduce you to a way out of your situation, I wish to take you on a ride of fulfilment, comfort and Peace of mind.....'it hit me at this point, is this man from MMM or this GNLD reformed people!?'....I stayed silent, as the man said, 'the person that sent me wants to have a meeting with you, he said I should come and arrange a meeting between both of you and I can promise, if you accept the meeting invitation and meet with this man, your story will be changed forever.'
I listened to this strange man as he introduced me to that man he mentioned as the solution to my problems...' I want you to meet with the Lord Jesus....'. Glued to my bed-bug ridden seat, I stayed silent for almost an hour as this strange visitor gave me the answers to those stubborn situations that has turned my life upside down,I accepted the invitation, received the good news and finally joined the fold of the Lord Jesus. And just like that,Jesus took the burden off my heart,replaced my wicked closest pals( Trouble and grief) with a reliable, greater one (Holy spirit),and indeed,my story changed just like the strange man had promised.
But then years later, something us still wrong, I still get the feeling I'm not living as my Lord wants me to live. Something is still missing, something is still wrong...."
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